I Feel Free!

I don't believe the labcoat gurus any more.

I remember when I first heard the album “Fresh Cream,” the debut album of Eric Clapton, Jack Bruce, and Ginger Baker’s group, “Cream.” I was in high school, listening to my sister Lisa’s copy in her room. I thought of it, and the feeling the song engendered in me, a week or so ago when I suddenly realized, I feel free!

When a doctor tells you you have only 2-4 years to live, a dark cloud descends upon you. It hovers in your subconscious. It seizes your hopes and counsels you to abandon them. Your mind becomes inflamed with concerns: am I doing everything right, should I see another doctor, will I end up on chemo, and what little can I still accomplish in my life before it’s too late?

Fortunately, I did fire my oncologist and have avoided chemo entirely. My diagnosis still haunted me though. Advanced, metastasized prostate cancer with 9 nodes spread into my lymph system. The urologist’s life-span prediction surely conforms to known statistics with such a diagnosis. Yet my wife Marcia and I have overcome that fear, as my PSA results have been consistently excellent at 2 and 3/4 years post my metastasis.

In fact, my number of positive nodes decreased from 9 to 4, and I currently have <0.1 PSA, ie, undetectable. This is primarily because of the Lupron shots, but I am sure it is also due to our plant based whole food diet, the IVM and Fenben, lots of sunlight, and the supplements I take as described in previous posts. My theory is that those for whom Lupron doesn’t work may not be healthy in other ways. For instance, they may be involved in unhealthy lifestyles, excessive alcohol use, and consuming processed, sugar-laden foods. There are no statistics for that!

I’ve said before, I’m a “guinea pig.” I am following my program religiously. I believe in it. I want it to work for everyone else, once we prove it works for me.

The best part is, I’m not living in fear any more. I’m not dying. I’m living, and I feel free!

John